Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Birth trauma

This applies to all people, but some experience more trauma than others.  A c-section or adoption, or other separation is difficult to locate and difficult to heal.  This is one possible solution:

Draw a cartoon of each stage in the birth.  Use logic or imagination or ask questions about the events to try and reconstruct a frame-by-frame cartoon of your birth.

Example:

Frame 1 is your mother pregnant with you in a hospital bed.
Frame 2 is your mother in stirrups.
Frame 3 is your mother giving birth with the doctor assisting.
Frame 4 is the doctor handing you to a nurse.  Were there injections?  


At each stage, try to remember who was in the room and what might have been said.  Put a cartoon bubble on the possible words.

When you think you have the basics, close your eyes and step into each frame in your imagination.  Try to imagine what it felt like.  Each frame.

How did you feel when you were inside the womb?  When you came out of the womb?  Use your imagination to try to access the primitive emotions that were imprinted upon you at the time of your birth.  You might have to rewrite the frames several times until if "feels" right.

You might find that some of your "horny" words were actually spoken at the time of your birth.  Do you have a sexual attraction for fat men?  Was your doctor fat?  Was there a tonality you remember?

Under natural conditions, the mother might have an assistive mid-wife or the father.  Birth did not occur in hospitals with veritable strangers.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

The Pythagorean Law of Religion and Psychology

Once Traumology is understood, the title above leads to personal books, articles, stories, movies, and music.

Pythagorean Theorem needs to be curved to Earth's curvature.  The trinities of Ego, Super Ego, and Id are the religious trinities' results on psychology.  It leads to predictable behavior and is the reason trinities are frequently "marketed" by the powerful.

Descartes' seat of the soul you might imagine your brain's pineal gland being a container for your soul.  Bouncing around in there and blocked by the Pythagorean triangle described by the trinities.  The synapses of your brain are in 3s...  (that is an imagination game with good creative consequences)

On the adoptive origins of Traumology and applicability to other traumas

While the oscillation described below applies to ALL trauma victims, the terms "worthless" and "special" were chosen due to my adoption. "Worthless" from my natural mother giving me away. "Special" from my adoptive parents treating me as such.

So, feel free to choose your own terms. It is basically "superior vs. inferior" or "better vs. garbage". Both of which lead to slavery.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Freud

Did you know Freud's daughter was a 50 year old virgin?  That begs the question, how did Freud become so popular back in the day?  Well, it turns out the answer is the wealthy at that time wanted women to remain virgins so they could peruse them for selection and marrying them off.

If the results were horrifying the means to the end were even worse.  You might take a look at Edward Bernays, Freud's nephew, for some interesting information about controlling populations through mass media. Edit: The point being, Freud and his family were NOT healthy emotionally. They were analyzing their own behavior and acting out horrifying experiments with horrifying consequences. In my opinion, the holocaust was a result of their influence. Control seemed possible. E=mc2 too.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Stopping the behavioral pattern of Worthless / Special

After years of observing my own behavior, I noticed a recurring pattern that I exhibited towards myself and towards others: treating myself and others as both worthless and special. Myself as worthless and others as special, myself as worthless one minute, myself as special the next. Always bouncing between the two. It took over a year for me to realize this was the result of an emotional trauma I was not aware existed. I had been consciously aware I was adopted, but did not realize the tremendous impact it had on me.

Rape victims, abused children, molestation victims all exhibit this pattern. Oscillating between worthless and special:

1. Treating someone as worthless to make yourself feel special. This feeds the ego to compensate for feelings of inadequacy.

2. Treating someone as special results in feeling worthless. This is usually an emotional repetition of the initial trauma.

3. Treating yourself as special and punishing yourself later.

4. Treating yourself as worthless and rewarding yourself later.

Examples of 3 & 4:
- extravagant shopping trip with a car accident on the way home
- eating junk food and fasting the next day

Worthless/Special is an endless oscillation that can be consciously prevented once the pattern is recognized. The pattern repeats the trauma and prevents recovery. Once stopped, your brain will begin to heal. It's that simple.

Three steps to resolving emotional trauma

1. Understanding and integrating the following formula:

Communication * Performance (or Actions)
________________________________
Time

What has the Communication of your Performance (or Actions) over Time been? What could it be with conscious intention?

2. Ending the behavioral pattern oscillating between Worthless / Special

3. Resolving Guilt through admission of such. Admission of guilt usually provokes anxiety.

Regardless of the source of the emotional trauma (rape, adoption, molestation, etc.), all trauma victims exhibit behavior that oscillates between feelings of Worthless / Special. See below for more about this.

Emotional trauma results in physical brain trauma. The physical trauma prevents feeling the full spectrum of emotions that are available to those more emotionally congruent.


EDIT 11/2/2013:  The above equation is good, but forgets the Trust aspect of (Trust + Performance) * Communication.  It assumes you can trust someone who is not deliberately tricking you.  Psychopaths exist, so the form above is naive if you are looking to a theory of the universe it will lead to a dominating dictator.  Assuming you have safe environment and are not blindly listening to an authority figure dictate your life, the formula does work however.  (I grew up around Hannibal Lecter psychiatrists, so should have written this disclaimer earlier.)  The formula IS good, if you assume God or Trust in something other than a human being actively tricking you.

Resolving guilt

Kierkegaard realized Guilt and Anxiety are opposites and there are many different forms of guilt and anxiety (anticipated guilt, anticipated anxiety, action-based guilt, learned anxiety). For those actions you are responsible for, guilt can frequently be resolved by provoking the associated opposite anxiety.

For example, if you cheated on your wife, guilt can only be resolved by going through the anxiety of admitting it to her.

Unless resolved in a reasonable time, guilt may create permanent karmic limitations.

The result of your life and intention

What has the Communication of your Performance (or Actions) over Time been?

Communication * Performance
___________________________
Time

That formula describes human existence. It can represent your current karma. Time is linear and forward only. With the realization that every moment is a conscious decision that results in conscious action, the formula can also define intention. What would you like that formula to resolve to?

Healing the brain while finding your true self

Traumology replaces psychiatry and renders it obsolete. No psycho-analysis necessary. No drugs.

Refuse to treat others as worthless to make yourself feel special.
Refuse to treat others as special because it will make you feel worthless.
Refuse to treat yourself as worthless to make up for feelings of special.
Refuse to treat yourself as special to later self-enforce feelings of worthless.

Following those 4 guidelines will place you on a path of balance. This allows your brain to heal trauma.

Drink filtered water only. Room temperature. Women's source of migraines is dehydration.
Eat meat. Rare steak and hamburgers. Baked potatoes and hashbrowns. Salads are good for cleaning out your body, but don't contain enough nutrition.

Traumology is the cure for psychiatry

Psychiatrists go into psychiatry to resolve their own issues. Rarely do they resolve them and frequently they use the practice to make themselves feel better while treating their patients as worthless.

Profitable Psychiatry is usually focused on either psycho-analysis or symptom treatment (eg. SSRIs).

SSRIs are useful in emergency situations to give the patient temporary relief from their trauma. This allows the patient to see themselves as they could be. If they keep a journal describing their emotions for a few months, and then quit the SSRI (Paxil, Prozac, etc.), they will have a before and after for comparison. Contrary to standard psychiatric guidelines, SSRIs should be quit suddenly. As the SSRI leaves the patient's brain over a few weeks, the patient might experience feelings of electrical shock in the brain. These are not painful, but are a bit disconcerting if misunderstood. Those zaps or shocks are simply brain synapses re-activating. Those synapses are learned behavior that was temporarily alleviated or routed around during the time under the influence of the SSRI. Behavioral patterns associated with those synapses will return, however the patient will have formed new synapses while under SSRI influence. Those new synapses can be consciously re-inforced as the patient reminds themselves of the emotions and experiences during treatment. As said before, SSRIs should ONLY be used in emergency conditions where the patient does not have hope for resolution to their trauma.

The best solution to resolving emotional trauma is to consciously recognize one's own behavioral pattern that oscillates between feelings of worthless and special. Don't treat others as either as the opposite will be returned. Similarly, don't treat yourself as either as the opposite will be self-inflicted at a later time. You are not special or worthless and neither are others.

The theory behind Freud's psychoanalysis is sound. Ego, Superego, and Id. However, Freud never resolved his own trauma and over-sexualized all aspects of his theory. Interestingly, the trinity of his theory is expressed in the external memes of most major religions. Eg. the holy trinity and Hindu's Brahman, Vishnu, and Shiva. That is another topic for discussion that I call: The Pythogorean Law of religion and psychology.

With conscious realization of a person's worthless/special behavioral pattern, no psycho-analysis is necessary. Simply recognize the behavior, avoid it, and the brain will heal over time.

What is Traumology?

Traumology is the study and resolution of trauma. Both physical and brain trauma is included, however my focus is the resolution of brain/mind trauma.

All people who have been traumatized exhibit a specific behavioral pattern: an oscillation between feelings of worthlessness and special. Adoptees, rape victims, or emotional abusees all repeat that behavior.

Ask yourself:
Why do you treat others as worthless just to make yourself feel special? To bolster your ego and feel better about yourself, trauma victims exhibit this behavior to get them through their day.

Who do you treat as special that makes yourself feel worthless? That could be father or authority or mother.

People, especially women, frequently oscillate between worthless and special in their own lives. Treating themselves to shopping trips and having a car accident on the way home. Many women service men sexually in the hope the man will say no, lift them up and make them whole again. Emotionally, they are waiting for their father to say no.

How many no's equals yes?
How many yes's equals no?
How many times must a woman service a man before he realizes he's not gay?
How many times must a woman service a man before he feels better?

A woman says "no" repeatedly to avoid responsibilty for their behavior.
A woman says "yes" repeatedly in the hope he will say no, thereby finding a source of trust.

IMO, many women are locked down emotionally and intellectually due to sexual trauma during childhood. They spend the rest of their lives treating others as special while making themselves feel worthless. They treat others (frequently stronger people) as worthless to make themselves feel special and get themselves through their day.